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What do I do from here?

I'm 17 and my life has been chaotic to say the least. I'm dealing with some pretty bad depression for which I'm taking medicine for, my little sister is a diabetic and hasn't been in the best of health lately, and my mom has really bad health and I don't know how much longer her body can take it. Also, my parents don't get along at all and last night I heard my dad talking on the phone to another woman. Then I heard him whispering about meeting her, I'm assuming it was a her, in 15 minutes. Then he comes in my room thinking I didn't hear the conversation and tells me he's running to work and then going to get something to eat. I am devastated. I had an idea that he was cheating, but now that I have proof...I can't take it. And it's not just a suspicion. I know how my dad is and I know that wasn't a man he was talking to last night...it wasn't just "one of the guys". My depression goes up and down, and lately I've been suicidal a lot. I feel as if there's no hope left. What do I do now?

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How did you hear your dad whispering when you were in another room????
You need some help learning how to cope with all the sh*t that life is dumping on you. Being 17 is hard enough without the extras. However, you don't get to pick what happens only how you handle it. Forget about your Dad's what-ever-it-is. Your Mom is in bad health and he may need some things that she can't help him with anymore. For all you know, this is something they have discussed and have made some deal about. At 17 you may not realize that happens. As for your depression and suicidal thoughts, honey, don't go there. Get some help because suicide is the end. That's it. Over. Done. No more chances. Your friends and family will never get over it. They will not be better off. You will not stop hurting either because you'll take it with you to the next life. It will get better, honest.
you should diffently see a doctor.. suicide wont solve anything
I'm sorry you are having a difficult time right now. But just remember there are people that have it a lot worse right now. And when things seem like they are at its worst the only they can only get better from there on out. Do a lot of praying. Know that God would never put you in a situation that you can't handle and grow from. Your Dad seems to be going through some issues his self. And I think if you let him know that you know about this and it hurts you, it will open his eyes and show him how he is potentially breaking up this family. Whatever you do, do think about suicide. That is not the answer. You have a lot of life to live and things aren't always going to go your way. But you have to fight through the hard times to enjoy the good times. You are still very young, don't beat yourself up for things that are out of your control. Seek some counseling or guidance from an elder. I will tell you now that at your age I thought life sucked and it was never going to get better. But needless to say I have grown up and see the good in life even when things are hard. I just lost my baby 2months ago and I have never hurt so much in my life. But I know that I can't let it keep me from living life. I am so sad everyday and I long for my baby boy but he is in God's arms now looking down on me. We are all God's children and he has plans for us all. Just be strong and know that things WILL get better for you. I hope they do!!
What your Dad is doing is being a bad husband. That is your mother's problem to handle. What's for you to handle is your health. Re-focus on the importance of your life. Read, pray, find a support system for you (friends, mentors). YOU ARE IMPORTANT and the suicidal thoughts and the depression make you lose focus of that fact. I would make sure your Mom is aware of what your Dad is doing, then step out of the issue. Don't keep track of your Dad or what's happening with that issue, again that's your Mom's situation to handl and she'll need her own resources which doesn't include you. Maybe talk to your Dad if possible in a loving way. But at the end of it all, YOU need care now from yourself and from a good circle of friends or family and seems your immediate family has their plate full with other stuff. This is a temporary situation in your life, it will all pass. It's just a matter of time.
when my life went to shit in 1972(my father died and my best friend died 2 weeks later in a car accident) I joined the US Marines and Boot Camp at Parris Island set me straight, got my head out of my worries, gave me a new purpose in life. I got out of the Marines in 75 and in 76 joined the US Army, I retired in 1994 with nearly 22 years of service and I remember joining the Marines in 72 was the best thing I could have done. Just a suggestion.